Superior People

Fuck superior people. Fuck them into oblivion.
Fuck people who need to put me down. Fuck you all to hell.
Its all about me now. Me, me, me. You, you will not be reading this, but you’d know who you are: email psycho.
Fuck you to hell. And the man you rode in on.

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So tense!

Almost every day there is some new fight in the morning. I realise how tense it makes me. Sitting here at work, I’m suddenly paralysed with twinges of tension.

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Because I am a Woman and I am Weak.

This is what I heard this morning. “You think you can do anything you like because you are a woman and you are weak”. A pithy summary of the state of play between Kal and I. He can do what he wants because I am staying at his house, and he thinks I can do what [...]

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Moving Out

I am moving out by myself! I’ve found a place – a one bedroom flat very close to transport, and 2 blocks from my mum and sis’ place.  I am excited! A place to my very very own for six months at least – 12, I hope.
A place with a door I can shut, lights [...]

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Structural maintenance

I’m getting a boob job.
I have longed for a reduction for years, but have been put off by the “after” images I could find. Surgeons advertised misshapen breasts (but with an obligatory nipple lift) with massive scarring. Patients complained of post-op pain for up to 12 months.
No thanks!
But I’m recently impressed by the results of [...]

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Is He a Sex Addict?

Last night I watched a terrible film called “I am a Sex Addict” in which writer / director / star Caveh Zahedi details his sex addiction. The thing is, the film is a misnomer. It becomes increasingly clear as the stories unfold, that Caveh visits prostitutes in order to punish the women in his life. [...]

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Freeeeeeee!

I’m free! Kalypso and I have forged a truce: we are not partners; I need to move out as soon as possible; and we can’t take each other for granted. Other than that, though, we’re being able to more relaxed, be fun with each other, offer comfort and understanding without strings.
He still peels mango for [...]

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Its been a while

So things have been churning within me for a little while and I haven’t had much time or energy to post blog entries. A large part of my brain just wants to watch House and Oz, and vege out heavily while the other parts of my brain process what they have to.
Now, like Deep Thought, [...]

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Sudden calm (an oldie, a debt)

I owe apologies all over the shop.
Mostly to Kate, for being unable to express how I do feel about her.
Kate, I am glad you are in my life. I think of your bedroom floor as a fertile river running with multicoloured fish rushing to upstream mating grounds, their scales flashing brilliantly in the sun. When [...]

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Depression, I think

Mood changes.
I’m sleeping when I should be awake, and I am awake when I should be asleep. All I want to do it watch tv and stare at the wall. I want to press my head and make the thoughts come out.
I’m going to increase my dose of zoloft. My brain needs serotonin.
I want to [...]

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