I want

The company of friends. My own friends – not someone else’s
To be responsible to my friends and family
Not to be caught up in drama
Freedom
The company of women!
Not to be afraid
To be in control of my own life
To be ok with being queer (omg, do I have to ‘come out’? Pretty sure everyone who cared guessed a [...]

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Support network part 2

Ok, so this mate of mine is trying to contact me… and for some reason I don’t want him to. Its really not fair or reasonable. I will get into  contact, and override this feeling of repulsion, this feeling of wanting to let everyone just slip away from me.
But this is how it happens.
I told [...]

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Support network

I’ve always got by on the minimum support network possible. But now, its becoming less and less viable.
I’ve been reading this book, Bipolar and Pregnant, by Kristin Finn. She lives in a stable middle class marriage where she doesn’t need to work (her husband earns enough for both). Her mother was a nurse. She goes [...]

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Spelling

There’s this woman that I know who is a chronic mis-speller. It irritates me. I wonder to myself: does she have an excellent knowledge of English, and is trying to be subversive; or is she spelling by phonics in a mad attempt to make herself understood?
Then that makes me wonder why I am such an [...]

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The Future

I no longer accept my predictions of the future.

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Bargaining

I feel like I can’t contemplate or ask for what I want because it will be used as leverage against me in yet another round of bargaining. There has got to be a better way to reach equilibrium.

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Injuries and musings

Getting up from my desk at work half an hour ago, I found myself in tremendous pain. I’ve injured my shoulder. Ouch. Neck pain, neck pain! can barely move pain.
Still, I will get through it. Just no fast turning around. Please don’t sneak up on me!
In other musings, I am having lots of thoughts about relationships. Me [...]

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Daal

I am going to make this.

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Fuck Gluten

I shared lunch with a friend today, and decided to try and fulfill my month-long asian noodle craving.
Ha!
I went to Hokka Hokka, got a satay vege and rice box. All good.
Wrong. I was very ill at work afterward. I am still burping noxiousness. Bleagh.

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Tired

I didn’t get to sleep last night until about 1.30am. I also didn’t eat dinner. I just wasn’t hungry, and I just wasn’t tired. I am both now however. I think it has a lot to do with Melbourne cup yesterday (Kal and I both picked the same horse at random, and that horse was [...]

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