I can feel it coming on.
Every other moment is de ja vu and I can see the future. I know what you did today, I know what everyone did. In my sleep, I am dreaming that I am awake and having conversations. I never need to wake up again because it all happens in my sleep. I have all these memories of dream happenings that interfere with my memories of real happenings.
I am finding that to sleep, I need extra seroquel. But that makes me groggy the next day, and more prone to slip into reverie. Sunday night saw me squatting in bed for a few hours staring out of the window, excited by the diffuse lights, the rain and the howling wind. The city lights captivated me! I laid down but I could not sleep. Not until I took 2 extra seroquel… and that made me groggy the next day.
-g- I know the excitement in mania but really frown when I read you could read the future. Maybe something is off with the meds, they can have these effects.
Of course there could be a large debate about what dreams are and why we dream and such, in which i take no interest to discuss. I am not disrespecting you or anything here, just wanted to point out that when things get really weird, it might be the meds.
Too bad you have mania approaching. Isn’t that some kind of a self fulfilling prophecy too? I never know what hits me when it hits…