Cynical Me
May 16, 2007 by Anna Aniston
I desperately want my thoughts and feelings to be special because I am cynical about the world in general. I have a pathological need to separate myself somehow, but a self-destructive knowledge that no separation is possible.
I want to keep it a secret to avoid comparisons, to avoid generality. But all I manage to avoid is taking myself less seriously, and precious lovely friendships.
That’s why I want to keep my heart away from your whizzing razor. I want to make it strong again, so that I can feel the beauty in the ordinary and not keep straining myself toward something as bright and fake as a fluroescent lamp.
