12 months ago I was…
- Taking care of a depressed partner
- Making new friends
- Working 40 hours per week
- Cooking
- Seeing friends several nights per week
- Hosting parties every week
- Going to anarchist bookshop meetings and involving myself in complicated debates about patriarchy
- starting a feminist group
- Writing something political very often
- Editing wikipedia every night
- Reading
- Doing a law course after hours
Then I split up from my long term relationship.
Looking back, I think that this was unusual activity. All good, activity, and it made me feel good. But it was hardly normal.
Then I split up from my long term relationship.
Looking back, I think that this was unusual activity. All good, activity, and it made me feel good. But it was hardly normal. But the problem is that I think that its how I should be all of the time. And that is impossible.
I can’t be like that, and have all that activity swarming around me all the time. It isn’t what is normal. But is how I sustain myself – I go 2 steps forward and 2 steps back. Leaps and bounds this way and that way. Its not sustainable.
Other kinds of unusual activity that I remember
- Looking at the stars every night for hours. Identifying the constellations and seeing the evidence of the Earth turning.
- Staying awake at night taking experimental photos and developing them myself
- Going for long walks (4 to 8 hours, often between midnight and dawn)
And not just once or twice, but for months and months at a time. Compulsively.
